Hmmm...

Just kinda randomly thinking... fun stuff...

Let's see: my wedding details.
Date: December 16

Color Scheme: Black, white, and emerald green

Maid/Matron of Honor: Jenn Krell

Bridesmaids: Nicholynn, Megan, Courtney, Brittney

Accompanist(s): Mrs. Wagner, Mrs. Rapson

Vocalists: Laura, ?

Flower girl: Jillian?

Ring Bearer: Josiah?

Ceremony: 6 pm, candle-lighting

Flowers: white roses/ emerald ribbons

Dress:

Bridesmaids: satin emerald gown opening onto black train w/ silver embroidery - also black velvet trim

Flower Girl: variation of bridesmaid's dress, minus the train ; )

Yes, I have a tiara veil and tiaras planned as head pieces... also full bouquets of white roses for the bridesmaids, just one white rose for moi.

Guys: black formal tuxes w/ emerald green cummerbunds... of course!

Children's Names

Moriana Christine
Angelina Janel
Elaine Juliana
Lyssa Marie
Jillian Cosette
Aria Nicole
Sylvia Catherine
Elizabeth Margeurite
Kloe Renee
Victoria Lynn
Noelle Elise

Erik Michael
Philip James
Zachary Aaron
Thomas Matthew

Hmm, I could go funeral too, but I'm not ready to die yet... I have to watch Cats a few more times first ; )

Well, it's just me again. Watching Into the Woods, singing, tap dancing, dancing en pointe. Acting, reading, writing. Just being who I am.

But what is that? What am I? Who am I? Am I truly kind or am I truly malicious? Am I honest, or feigning honesty through a tangled web of deceit and lies, fooling even myself? What is this thing that I'm living? A life? An existance?

Hmm. Things to ponder...

Ick.

District Choir is in two weeks. I'm scared. Out of my mind. Jinkies.

Well, Theo and Ry and I had some time on our hands last Wednesday, so we decided to have some fun. Meet the newest members of the cast of Cats: mes freres!

Ugh

I feel like I could die. Or kill someone else.

Zack, my Zack, the Zack that I have loved for the past year and a half... is gay. He has a boyfriend, and he has pictures of them kissing on facebook. I could wring his neck. Now I really want to go back to New York... or as far away from Pittsburgh as possible! (Sorry, Courtney.)

I don't understand how this happened. I don't understand why this happened. How could Mr. Head Honcho up there, the "god of love" allow this to happen to me? Some love that is! He's a selfish loser just like the people that he created, and I am really angry with him. With Zack. With... grr, everything!

Well, life is life. I want to know why I'm bothering. No matter how hard I try, Mifflinburg remains a ditch. A ditch that doesn't give a *bleep* about anything but catching up with China's test scores.

So, I live from moment to moment, class to class, trying not to give a *bleep* about anything other than school. Do you realize how hard that truly is? I couldn't care less about my stupid church, because it's all hypocrisy and politics and poor treatment of volunteers. I care about school more than is healthy, and the same thing with my family. I get so dang close and then they leave me or I leave them. What's the point? I'm going to leave in less than 3 years, and I'm going to try to keep in contact, and they'll never answer my letters or return my phone calls. And I'll wonder, why the heck do I bother?

I'll be a bum on the streets of New York, trying desperately to become good enough to get into the chorus of some random show. And I'll wonder why on earth I left everything here behind. I'll forget that this place is a hole filled with good people and bad people who don't know what they're missing by staying here. I'll come back, and then I'll miss the city. If I stay in the city, I'll miss Mifflinburg and all of its "patheticness."

What an existence.

Life

Well, basically, my bedroom's clean, I counted 98 pair of shoes, midterms are this week, I made the musical (42nd Street) as Ethel, I'm scared out of my mind about district choir in a month, and I'm obsessed with the musical Cats and an incredible British named Elaine Paige. C'est mon vie.
Here, thought you might get a kick out of these:

The cutest kids in town...

Just a few pics of the cutest kids in the whole wide world! Chas, Charlie, Britty, and my bros.

Well, these are pics of me and my new hat. I was just being goofy, and it was fun! I'm wearing it as I type... So, yeah, I kinda look like a 20's diva, haha. I took all of these pics myself (aren't you proud?). So, here you go. Enjoy (You can see more on facebook!)

2008

And, so, another year begins. Another tragic existance, justified only by the lives of a few precious people. Another spring musical will begin, and another round of tests, essays, and torture. Another round of mid-terms, another round of birthdays, another year of holidays that aren't worth celebrating. Another year of absolute boredom in dull PA.

As for resolutions? I've resolved to not make any resolutions; they all get broken anyway! I am determined to lose weight, though. I'll get back down to 110 if it kills me. No more chocolate for me! I'll just stare at my blog template and drool...

Anyway, happy new year. Anybody going to New York soon? TAKE ME WITH YOU!!! :* (