So, I live from moment to moment, class to class, trying not to give a *bleep* about anything other than school. Do you realize how hard that truly is? I couldn't care less about my stupid church, because it's all hypocrisy and politics and poor treatment of volunteers. I care about school more than is healthy, and the same thing with my family. I get so dang close and then they leave me or I leave them. What's the point? I'm going to leave in less than 3 years, and I'm going to try to keep in contact, and they'll never answer my letters or return my phone calls. And I'll wonder, why the heck do I bother?
I'll be a bum on the streets of New York, trying desperately to become good enough to get into the chorus of some random show. And I'll wonder why on earth I left everything here behind. I'll forget that this place is a hole filled with good people and bad people who don't know what they're missing by staying here. I'll come back, and then I'll miss the city. If I stay in the city, I'll miss Mifflinburg and all of its "patheticness."
What an existence.
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